Since turning 34 last month, I have been plagued with the HORRIBLE feeling of looking and feeling so much older. Since having 2 kids, I have packed on 50 pounds. I have laugh lines and a deep line between my eyes. I'm starting to get gray hairs! I dress so frumpy because I'm so overweight. I want to lose weight , but feel like it'll never happen. I cringe every time I look in the mirror. My hubby keeps telling me that I don't need to lose weight. I asked him if I lost the weight, could I please have plastic surgery to put back areas of my body that have migrated south for the winter. I'd also like some line filler and maybe Botox. I'm really not sure of all the 'improvements' yet as I need to research safety, doctors, and procedures... but I am sick of looking old, tired, and fat. My husband is concerned that if I lose the weight and have my breasts lifted and my tummy tucked, that I'll appeal to other men and I'll find someone more attractive than he is. But honestly, this has nothing to do with him. Even though I was no raving beauty in my youth, before kids, I looked mildly attractive. Now, I feel so utterly unattractive and it's really getting to me. I just want to look like I did before kids. I don't want enhancements or to look 21 again. Just to look refreshed and like my old self. Is that silly?