So here's my dilema. I've been with this guy for three years. I love him. When we met the two of us were carefree and inseperable. Since then we have gotten engaged and had a beautiful baby boy. Still going ok. Its been maybe three months now that everything is different. His neice started living with us which caused some stress. She's sixteen years old. But besides that he seems diffenent. Distant really. I want so badly to fix us. We argue a lot over stupid things that are not important at all. So I started seeing a counselor to deal with some of my issues. Mostly I'm frustrated with him because he still wants to be a kid. He wants to go out and party instead of have responsibilities and a family. I miss being able to do whatever I wanted to all the time but I have to be adult enough for everyone so its making me a b*t*h. I know that I'm not stupid. But then I started feeling very disconnected with him and I thought it was just all the fighting. Then one day I did something I said that I would never do. I checked his phone and his email. This wasnt out of left field though. I dont want it to seem like I'm one of those crazy girlfriends. One night he took my phone with him when he went out. When he got home he had tried to delete all the messages he got. The thing about my phone is it saves everything you send or even write and dont send. There was a message that clearly stated he wanted to have sex with this girl. I asked what it was about and he said someone else had sent it to this random girl they met. For one I knew the number. Its a girl he works with. For two when I checked his email he had been sending that kind of message to her and to other girls. Hinting at the fact that we weren't together anymore. I've asked him about all of this and he makes excuses or denies it. I haven't come out and said I checked his messages because I know him and he will turn it around on me. He's really good at that. I've kind of hit a point where I'm ready to call it quits but I cant make myself leave. I've told him to leave before. About two weeks ago we got in a huge fight about the same stuff and I told him I was done. To get out. He packed all his stuff and went to see the baby. He came back to the bedroom where I was. He was crying, begging me to let him stay. I'd never seen him like that. I believed him when he said things would change. I said I couldnt keep living like this if it didnt. Two weeks later and I feel like we are already back there. I dont know what to do. I cant leave this man I love him way too much. I just need advice on how to start fixing us before there is no going back. I know it sounds dumb to love someone after everything he has put me through but he's been there and supported me through so much.